Ella Drinks Wine and Leaves Portland

Ella
threw herself on the car
as man after man drove away
with her cartons of cigarettes
and her empty bottles of wine
and her car keys
and her world
that dismantled
with every
ugly word

Ella
in love with a prettier star
tore through the walls
of a palace that buried
her 1990s blood
that spilled all over the road
and separated us
from one another

Ella
didn't stay for long
she drove through downtown
alleyways, and avenues
crowded and silent
the speedometer read 70+
she looked out for cops
they didn't care
she drove down the coast
and fell asleep beside the ocean
with a bottle of wine in her right hand
and an empty carton of cigarettes in her left

she never felt so alone in her entire life