There Will Be No Wedding

no, I've already fucked this thing up once before
tried to capitalize on my own pain
did the pious thing
stopped drinking and called it the Holy Ghost
ditched my old friends for some better ones
abandoned my brother
kicked my boys around
so they would really know
that it hurts me
far more than it hurts them

no, I can't do this all over again
I have far too much blood on my hands
besides that
you just wont understand
when you try to satisfy me
and you just can't