A Prayer of Thankfulness

when I woke this morning
it felt like i won the lottery
i bought a new car
a bunch of high-tech toys
and brand new bikes for my kids

we all smiled around the dinner table
and we thanked You for You're infinite mercy
and then i got into my new car
i sped down the rode
surrounded by Your grace and wisdom

then he didn't turn down his brights
i, in my finite foolishness,
merged into his lane on
our rural two-lane highway

we hit the on-coming truck
i awoke and a pool of my own blood
and i was surrounded by shattered glass
but still, i forgot about the boy
he was in the passenger seat
but now he's gone

as i bathed in Your grace
i told him not to put on his seatbelt
but instead he was thrown from the car
100 yards ahead of me
in a pool of his own blood

then as the ambulance rolled
his dead body away
i walked the three miles back home
in the dark
at around 3am pacific standard time

i crawled in bed with my lovely wife
i broke her the news
she cried, wailed and told me to "fuck myself"
and that she would never speak to me again
and she never did